I just cant describe how I felt that early Valentine’s day when I dialed Cassandra’s number and found it was switched off.
At first I had hope that she would soon switch on the phone since it was still early and probably was switched off as she slept the previous night. But as 12noon approached and the phone was yet to be switched on, I became extremely worried, scared and suspicious. I painfully realized that her phone was most likely switched off to avoid my calls. A realization that clouded my entire being. I felt so terrible, so humiliated, so deceived. I felt like smashing my head on the wall.
A day that was supposed to be one of my most memorable days slowly turned into a painful nightmare. I couldn’t believe Cassandra could play me in such manner. I couldn’t help but think of what she could be doing that very moment.
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‘’she’s most probably with a guy or about seeing someone else’’ I reasoned with great pain. All the plans and hopes I had for that day slowly dashed. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t think properly. I couldn’t even do anything. To make matters worse my friend Chinedu called to know if Cassandra and I had finally gotten to Portharcourt. Something he did so innocently as a friend but his question left me feeling more bitter. I couldn’t even tell him that Cassandra was yet to show up. I couldn’t tell him that Cassandra was disappointing me.
‘’please bro, I will call you later’’ was all I managed to say before ending his call. Slowly the clock struck 2pm with Cassandra’s phone still switched off, nevertheless I still had some faint hopes that she would show up. .
‘’dear lord, don’t let her disappoint me’’ I prayed fearfully. My heart really was more than shattered and broken. I had that painful feeling we guys get when we catch the person we love so much cheating on us. Mine was even more painful because i trusted the d–n girl with all my heart. I was close to tears as the clock struck 7pm without Cassandra showing up nor her phone switched on. I hopelessly went to bed with an empty stomach and a broken heart. I couldn’t believe it was all happening. My life just came to a standstill . I felt terribly bad and sick. I couldn’t help but come to the conclusion that the woman I loved so much was playing me like a leather ball. Oh it was such a painful feeling of hopelessness. But the unfortunate and surprising thing of it all was that my heart was ready to forgive Cassandra.
I was still ready to do everything for her. Finally early the next day, my phone woke me up with its loud ringing tone. I grabbed my phone to see that it was Cassandra who was calling. My heart froze as I nervously answered.
‘’I’m so sorry for disappointing you dear. My phone was down yesterday and there wasn’t any electricity in my hostel to charge the phone. Moreover I also woke up with a terrible stomach upset. I vomited all through yesterday. I was even unable to leave my bed. Please I’m so sorry for disappointing you’’ she apologized effortlessly, leaving me breathing deeply. To be sincere with myself, I knew she was lying but I closed my heart to it and chose to believe all she said. I just was badly in love with her, moreover hearing her voice very early in the day changed my feelings. I suddenly became happy once again.
‘’please I’m ready to do anything to relieve the pain I probably caused you yesterday’’ she added.
‘’the only way you can compensate me is by coming over as soon as possible’’ I muttered seriously.
‘’fine, I’m on my way then’’ she accepted quickly and hung up, leaving me with the strangest feeling I ever had. I was so much in love with Cassandra but for the first time I was scared of my future with her.
To be continued…